Beat Depression

I’m Kristin and go to Texas A&M. My roommate is a severe alcoholic. We have been friends for almost 3 years. I did not realize how much he drank until we moved in our apartment. He cannot control his drinking, so he tries to control me. Today he got mad at me because I was watching a tv show he did not want to watch. I listened to him yell at me for about 2 straight hours. He was saying things that to me that would make anyone depressed for a while. He is physically abusing me. One day we had an argument over something he considered a huge deal when it was over something very small and normal people wouldn’t care about. He would not let me in my room so he held me by my arms and shoved me against the wall leaving black and blue bruises all over my arms. I hit him for the first time today. I have to admit it felt very good. He is threatening to sue me and i don’t understand this considering he has hurt me so many times in the past, physically and mentally. His drinking problem is making this semester of my college life depressing, lonely, unhealthy and unhappy. The funny thing is, after every single psycho drunken attack on me, he tried to apologize… and when i don’t want to talk or accept his apology it starts all over again. My door gets busted down, holes get put in my walls and bruises put on me. I am sick of going to school with marks put there by him and I am afraid that this is going to affect me for a long time. I have had no relationships with other guys this semester because of him. If he finds out that I am talking to a guy, studying with a guy etc… he freaks out and calls me a slut and that I am ugly and fat and no one would want to date me. I cannot take this abuse anymore, I need to get this taken care of. I am afraid that if i tell my dad, he might do something that would get him in trouble, like kick my roommates ass, which i wouldn’t mind, but i don’t want my dad getting put in jail for assault.

-Kristen